Story: Destiny Delayed But Unchanged….Episode 4
Destiny Delayed But Unchanged….
I frooze like a robot. I turn to face the couple.
Linda is shocked, so is Micheal himself and so is his mum and every other person in the church.
“I’m sorry…”He mutters. “I don’t even know where that came from…”
But Linda would have none of it as we all watch her run out of the church in tears.
“Oh my God Micheal, what were you thinking?” I ask in genuine shock. Wondering why in God’s name my name came out instead of his bride’s.
“You!” He responds and then runs after his bride.
My knees are weak and I honestly think I would fall, so I grab the closest chair and sit.
The wedding rehearsal has been disrupted, thanks to Micheal’s mistake and half of the people who came are with him and Linda outside the church.
I bow my head as I cover my face with my hands. This is going to be disastrous. Linda is going to hate me…forever.
A good Christian forgives her ex and maybe attends his wedding but a good Christian doesn’t ruin the wedding.
Some of the bridesmaids that didn’t rush out are whispering and I know it has a lot to do with me. I raise my head and look around the empty church. There has to be somewhere I can hide my face for a short while? Because I’m sure this whole group will think there’s an affair between the groom and i and that’s why my name popped up instead of his bride’s.
There’s got to be a toilet in a church as large as this, right? I stand and walk past the few bridesmaids gathered and scan the church for the toilet. I can’t afford to go outside now – too risky.
As I near the exit, I hear the bride’s mom ask “who is this Rebecca?”
Hmm …another reason to avoid that place for now. Suddenly, I sighted the toilet sign from where I was and like a mad woman is pursuing me, I dashed in and bolt the door behind me.
Leaning against the wall with my eyes tightly shut, I begin to relive the events of the past few minutes in my head. I’m going to have to leave.
Coming here in the first place was utterly foolish and ridiculous. The right thing to do now would be to leave.
I dial David’s number and narrate the recent development to him.
“You know I told you this…”
“David” I didn’t let him finish. “Just don’t rebuke me for once. Just…just be my best friend now.” I said to him and I hear him sigh.
“How are you feeling now?” He asks me in a softer tone and I know he really does care.
“Horrible David…horrible. I felt like I ruined the real wedding itself.” I reply, dreading the minute I’d walk out of the toilet and face the people outside.
“They’ll be fine. The question is are you going to be fine?” He asks and I realize that I honestly don’t know.
I stay in the toilet for extra thirty minutes and then stroll out of there. Everyone has vacated the church and I sigh in relief. I have decided to go pack my things and head back to Lagos.
When I step out of the church, I realise the whole compound has been deserted by everyone. Everyone, except Micheal.
“Why are you here?” I ask as I sight him sitting on the church staircase, his gaze on nothing in particular. I look around and there is no Linda at sight. My heart breaks and for the thousandth time I feel very bad.
He doesn’t respond and I try again, “Where’s Linda? Is she okay?”
Again, he gives me no answer.
I sat by him and stare at the cars that speed by on the road. We both stay that way for some minutes before he finally speaks
“I wanted it to be you. I have never felt that way about any other woman. Never. I loved you with my entire being, it was either you or nobody else…”
I look at him and I realise that he has a distant look in his eyes. I don’t know where his mind is exactly but it is sure not here with him.
“I let myself believe the feelings ended with us…” He continued and suddenly stopped. Again, moments passed and neither of us said a word.
“Why are you here Rebecca?” He breaks the silence by facing me with the question.
I don’t know what to say, especially since his expression is so unreadable.
“You need to leave.” He adds and gets up.
I nod. It is something I have decided to do with David’s full support anyways.
He pulls me up and without letting go of my hands stares at me intently, “Rebecca…the first time I met Linda, I told myself I’d make it work with her. She fell in love with me and even though I had to catch up with that, when I fell in love with her I promised myself that I’d make it work with her the way I could never do with you”
I swallow hard and nod as I listen to him say all these things from the bottom of his heart “I was sure I had made the right decision until last night. That argument changed everything, I started thinking about everything again. Everything Rebecca. Everything I should have let go off. I’m still in love with you and you shouldn’t be here. I’m sorry and I love the fact that you’re being selfless but let me see this through”
I blink back the tears but I can’t stop it. It flows down freely.
I can’t say that I didn’t expect Linda to come to me, one thing I didn’t expect is for her to walk into the room I was and stare at me for a long time without uttering a word.
I’m packing some of my things that I left out and getting ready to leave as early as possible tomorrow. At least that was what I was busy doing before Linda walked in. I know she wants to kill me at that moment and I honestly don’t blame her.
She laughs and I turn to look at her. For the first time I realise that her eyes are swollen and reddish from what I assume are too much tears.
I honestly need to leave because seeing her this way makes me feel guilty.
“You know, when my mom was asking me earlier why I didn’t just see what Micheal did as a harmless mistake, I thought…this woman knows nothing about what’s going on” she begins as soon as her laughter ends. “I hated you from the moment you walked into this house wanting to be a part of the preparations, acting like you’ve got a big heart and like you’re here to wish us a happy married life.”
She stares at me, hatred clearly written in there.
“I have lived in your fucking shadow for months! Micheal was so much in love with you when I came along and I had hoped it would pass. It never did and when he fell for me, I still knew that it never did. When you came here for the wedding, I tried to make you a friend. ‘Bring your enemies closer’ they say and that was what I tried to do. It was what I tried to do, Rebecca! That’s why I stayed an extra day here. What bride stays at her groom’s days to the wedding? You make me so fucking insecure!”
My heart breaks for the thousandth time as I watch fresh tears flow down her face. I hate myself so much at the moment. I feel so awful.
“He’s still in love with you…that’s my worst fear…he still loves you…” She says to me almost in a whisper. “The way he stared at you in the study earlier? That’s him in deep love. And you know it” she cleans her face with the back of her palms. “What’s more? You love him too”
She stares at me as if daring me to disagree. And I know I dare not. I’m still insanely in love with Micheal the way I was a year ago.
“You know, I cheated on Micheal once? He never knew. I was with this guy while I was with him simply because I was so scared one day he’d run off to you. Your memories kept haunting me…just get the fuck out Rebecca…please” now her eyes are pleading.
Jeez, she must be going through a whole lot of emotions at once!
“Please let me make him happy…please”.
She crosses the room and was by my side in seconds “please, just get the hell out of here and give us the chance to imagine you don’t exist”
I nod and manage a smile.
“I would want to spend my life with you if I was a man as well…I understand why he’s this way…” She grabs my hands and again says, “please”
“Its okay Linda. I’ll leave in the morning. And I’m sorry you feel this way about everything. I never meant to cause any harm” I say to her.
She nods. And she hugs me. And I know that I just passed on forever the only man I’d ever truly love.
-To Be Continued-